Does this nagging feeling ever go
away? It’s the, “Life is pretty good
right now, but at any moment it could all slide down the rabbit hole again”
feeling. I mean, in the last week or so,
I’ve only lost a couple of hours to hiding in my bedroom feeling pathetic. Which seems like a miracle. In fact, not only have I not been hiding in
my room, but I’ve been enjoying the time spent outside of it. A lot.
But there is this feeling that’s following me around like a shadow. It’s always there and often nearly
imperceptible, but nothing can coax it to leave. No matter how much fun I have, I always
wonder how long it will be before I’m back to being curled up under the covers
wishing everything would just go away. And
so I repeat the question: Does this nagging
feeling ever go away?
As someone who has lived more than half my life with depression, I like to try to share my experiences in order to end the stigma of mental illness and help others to know they're not alone.
June 22, 2012
June 1, 2012
26 and Still Depressed?
Today I
turned 26. Without a Bachelor’s
Degree. Without even a major I’m sure
of. Without a full-time, year-round
job. Without an apartment or home of my
own. Without a boyfriend, much less a
husband. With severe depression. With an increasingly serious anxiety
disorder. With strained relationships
with my best friends. With a lot of
self-doubt.
But
today I laughed a LOT. And it was
enough.
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