Yesterday
I decided that it was time to put my money where my mouth was and tell people
about my mental illness. On
facebook. For the whole world to see. This is what I wrote:
My Dear Friends,
There's something I'd like to tell
you. It's been a little over a year since I checked myself into the local psych
ward for a three day stay. Not a lot of you knew about that. I suffer from
depression and anxiety and have since I was 12 or 13. It's a big part of my
life and a big part of who I am and where I am today. And I've decided it's
time to be frank about it. It's not a result of sin. It's not a result of lack
of will power or laziness. I can't just snap out of it. It is a result of my
brain chemistry, and I am no longer ashamed of my brain chemistry. I am not
ashamed of my trials. If you think less of me now that you know this about me,
that's your loss. But I want you to know about it so you can ask questions, so
we can get rid of the stigma associated with mental illness, and so maybe I can
even help some of you with similar struggles. Talk to me about it. Ask me
questions. I've probably heard them before. This is me making lemonade with the
most bitter lemon I've ever been handed. A wise woman once said, “If you can claim something, it has far less power over you.” Well I am claiming this. I am
claiming my mental illness. I hope you understand.
With Love,
Ashleigh
And it’s absolutely true- “If you
can claim something, it has far less power over you!” I’m a little stunned by the outpouring of
love and support. At the last count, I
had 59 “likes”, 28 comments, five private messages, and a text message. People care.
And I’m so grateful I gave them the opportunity to do so. And I’m going to keep owning depression! You hear that, depression?! YOU DON’T OWN ME! I’M FREE!!!
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