January 23, 2012

Why I'm Still Not Asleep

Sometimes it hurts to be awake.  To use my brain.  To feel.  I used to sleep it off.  I used to sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep and sleep.  And sleep.  Now I just stay awake.  Even though I’m tired.  No, I’m not tired.  That’s not quite it.  I’m… tired of hurting.  But I just prolong it by staying up another hour.  This can’t be healthy.  Is it worse than cutting myself?  Not worse.  Is it any better?  Probably not.  Am I going to bed now?  We’ll see.

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